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I am alive and not in Bama for the evening   
02:59am 11/02/2006
 
mood: indescribable
Well the condo was beatiful.We did find a pernmeant place to live though in Orange Beach called Beaver Creek,this house is so pretty.I will miss waking up at 6:30 everymoring with him and kissing me to tell me to go back to bed.I will miss the nights we left the window open and you wake up to the waves crashing right out.That was the one of the most peaceful sounds on earth.I miss my home but the beach isn't as bad as i thought it would be.In the new house we live in now we are about ten mintues from the beach.But tonight i am in New Orleans actually by my self.I even snuck in at 2 am and my dad doesn't even know i was coming down this weekend,i just never really got around to calling.He wont mind though.I am came for Kristin's (mallory's niece who i love) for her surpise sixtenth birthday.Sad part was today was Mallory's birthday and Kristin got all the attention and i felt bad for her.I know she turned 20 and people don't make as big of a deal with 20 as they do sixteen but i still felt for her you know?But sad part is i did come to New Orleans alone.David and Chad stayed behind to do there thing and me mine.I told them while i was down here i was going to see if my dad would drive back with me and take the rest of my things so i can finally have my room together and not be living our my Little Ceasear boxes.Plus that way i dont have to wait for us to take another trip to New Orleans and i know if we came down i wouldn't get to do but i reallyed wanted anyways.But that's ok giving me time away from the boys is good.I actually for once tonight didn't think about either one of them,even Chad.I almost forgotten about them until i gotten home.Not in a bad way but it's giving me the time i needed to catch my breath.But i did notice something that my dad hadn't thrown away yet and that was my dried sunflowers,my favorite flower.These flowers hold a very specail and very sad story in that kind of hopeless romantic kind of way and i didn't feel sad looking at them instead tonight i smiled,I love him and i guess that's all there is to it.For once im realizing that he loves me too................
 
     

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Time to say goodbye   
11:53pm 06/01/2006
 
mood: sad
I have off friday (today) and Saturday i go to work on Sunday and get off at 4,i leave at 4.I am so sad and scared and everything i keep pretending all day that isn't not happening so soon and im not leaving my life of 16 years either for good or for a very long extended period of time.It took me from 11 am this morning until 6 this evening to pack boxes of just my clothes and i dont have that many clothes i was just trying to put it off so bad.I want my friends and my cat and my mom i haven't cried yet and i dont want to but its so hard cause i have so much more stuff to do and so many to say bye too.Mr.Wayne found a way for me to stay,actually he has been knowing but never told me cause he didn't think i was that serious about wanting to stay but he didn't tell me until Thrusday at work and im leaving Sunday and that is to late to tell Chad and David no,esp. since they are getting a house,they didn't come down tonight cause they actually have an appt. to go look at the house with the guy tommorw morning.Plus if i dont go i lose chad and the only chance to leave this city.I love New Orleans don't get me wrong and i will miss everything and everybody about it but its a black hole that sucks you in.People come down and vist all the time and never return home just stay here.I love it but its a black hole.I moved to Texas twice now to get out New Orleans both times i said i would never go back,frist time i went back five days later this time it was about three months later.I know Gulf Shores will be longer but i will be back,mark my word.You can't get rid of me you can't take this city away from me as much as i hate it at times and how pretty the beach it.No sandcastle in the world can compare to my home.
 
     

(Break Me)

 
dads birthday and milestone   
06:35pm 30/12/2005
 
mood: sick
Today is my dad's birthday and i felt bad since my mom left and i know she didnt call him or anything and neither did anybody else and even know he is a huge jerk and such i got him a birthday card cause after all he is my father.He might not have been a good one but still.You know whats funny i got him a card and it was one of those funny ones not even serious like i love you and hope your birthday goes good in fact it was kinda mean in a joking manner but he still looked happy that i remembered and even just got him a card and that made me feel kinda good too.Normally he wont speak a word to me unless he's bitching about something or trying to prove me wrong or down grading me or making fun of my believes or friends but tonight he is speaking to me civil i mean god he even asked me if i wanted some dinner,lol i honestly dont remember the last time i got asked such a simple question.Wow it's honestly amazing what one birthday card will do.Oh yea new update on my situation i will be leaving in two weeks,.......without my cat. :( But hopefully my dad wont sell the house before March cause we need to find a pernament place by March so i can take my baby.Btw one more thing .......i havent forgotten what today is and i still think about it.It maybe the past but its part of my past i haven't forgotten about.I do love Chad but im just letting you know i haven't forgotten.Anyways i am happy cause i have my computer back up with internet and everything so more updates!At least for two weeks until i move,yes upload my IPOD all i can until then.But i have to go finish packing and showering cause Chad is coming in tonight and i have a headache so better start early ttfn ta ta for now.
 
     

(Break Me)

 
Virgina   
03:11pm 22/12/2005
 
mood: bored
Its so cold up here and most of the place is covered in snow not where my mom's new apartment is though.But thats ok cause there is snow by my aunt's house and they have a big hill so i can go sledding in a big tv box down it woo hoo!!!!!!!!!!More to say later...........
 
     

(2 doll_parts | Break Me)

 
Stolen from jeremy!   
06:50pm 17/12/2005
  Mark X next to things that are true.

Appearance
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] have/I've had braces.
[x] wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[x ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.


Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've run away from home.
[x] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[undecided] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[x] I've lost a child.


School/Work
[ ] I'm in school.
[x] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired.


Embarrassment
[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[ ] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x]I've glued my hand to something
[ ] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I've gotten stitches.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[x] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[x ] I've gotten lost in my city.
[ ] I've seen a shooting star.
[ ] I've wished on a shooting star.
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x] I've been to a casino.
[ ]I've been skydiving.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing
[x] I've been in a play.
[x] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten Sushi.

Relationships
[ ] I'm single
[x] I'm in a relationship.
[x] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[x] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[x] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[x] Ive ran a red light.
[x] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.

Death and Suicide
[x] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[x] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[x] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[x] I've planned my own suicide.
[x] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[x] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I own something from The Gap.
[Pretty much everything i own i am the ebay queen!] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random
[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[ ] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[x] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name
[ ] I love being neat
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[ ] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[YES!] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[?] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I love white chocolate
[ ] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[x] I'm good at remembering names
[x] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

[x] My answers are totally honest
 
     

(Break Me)

 
For those of you who don't know   
06:39pm 17/12/2005
 
mood: cold
The one and only Pimp Masta K is moving soon.*Sniff*I don't want to move but i will be moving to Gulf Shores,AL sometime between the end of January and early Febuary.I can't take my dog which i am very upset about cause i have had her for 12 years now and she is pretty much my baby,sometimes i feel like i gave birth to her but the good news is my kitty (binx)can come with me!I don't want to move cause my job is down here and i absoulety love my job,all my friends are down here and the only place i have ever really known is New Orleans.You see the problem is my mom is moving to Virgina and she is selling the house down here,obviously and since Chad and I moved back down here after the hurricane we were living in her house.Well our friend David found out we would need a place to stay come Febuary,well the weekend we tell him this just also happens to be the weekend his brother decieds to let him know he would be moving out and trying to come back to Chalmette and rebuild.So that means David has an open bedroom and needs somebody to help pay the rent.That also means Chad and I would need jobs,well Chad is covered.David and his brother worked together so Chad is refilling the postion.Problem is that means Chad is moving there tommorw.Now you see i could move there tommorw with him but it's almost Christmas plus my dad is a lazy bum who is losing whatever mind he has left so i feel it is my duty to tie up the house stuff for my mom while she is already up in Virgina.I don't want to go through all this i really don't but i don't really have a choice in the matter,i mean during the hurricane i kept wanting to come back to New Orleans and missed it so much and now i have to leave the city i was dieing to come back too.I mean granted Chad and David's parents both still live here and all my friends are here so of course i will be in on weeekends but it's not the same.No more drag shows which im so upset cause i am about to starting performing again but dont worry for all my drag friends Daniel Darko is back and he will be back on stage soon(for all my little drag honeys who were wondering,i miss and love performing and seeing you guys so yes i will be back on stage i will perform as much as they let me before i leave and even when i come back to vist :) )But it still sucks.So for Christmas i have to take a car ride with my dad up to Virgina to spend Christmas with my mom,dad,all of our pets,and my aunt and uncle.I don't mind the trip it's self so much cause i get so see really awesome family that i never get to see and i will see some more snow but taking like an 18 hour road trip with just my dad,the disgusting pervert jerk is what im not looking forward too.But take the good with the bad i guess.I don't know.....i so don't want to move.......somebody want to give me there FEMA trailer so i can stay down here?LOL
 
     

(2 doll_parts | Break Me)

 
Fatness   
03:47pm 07/12/2005
  I got some spiffy new fat pants the other day.Well i ordered me a pair when i ordered Chad's chrismtas present and Chad picked some up at the mall the other day,which by the way i saw Jen with two n's and i haven't seen her in like two or three years...i missed her so much but i doubt she even recongizned me.I mean she recongized Chad,which is still the werid part cause we both have known Jen for a while but didn't meet until like 2 years ago.In fact i had all the same friends he did for about four months before we finally met i still think that is some crazy shit.Yea but when we were talking to jen (more like chad talking to her) she kept looking at me like she knew me and i was going to say hi but i didn't want to and her not remember me cause i could see it now "Hey,remember me?Im kitty we hung out and went to ehert together for a brief moment in time."But i could so see her like saying "I don't know you."Ah im so werid and cautious with things like that cause of my socail aniexty.Oh well i am getting some what better  
     

(2 doll_parts | Break Me)

 
Thanksgiving and other shits   
05:28pm 25/11/2005
 
mood: sore
Well chad and i went with david to his mom and dad's house for the whole thanksgiving thing,then came back to mine.For our pathetic attempt at thanksgiving since it will be our last one as a family since my mom is moving to Virgina and going to be serving my dad with divorce papers shortly after.I am not even that upset about that.I just don't want to move to Baton Rouge but chad has his heart set on moving out there when my mom moves.I mean we don't have to move,but im not staying with my dad.He is a fucking asshole and plus i don't trust Chad with him,Chad has already threated to kill him in his sleep already.I have also given serious thought to when my mom does divorce him to turn his computer into the cops so they can see all the sick shit he has been doing.Cause she is going to file for divorce under adlutery(sp?) and this classifies way more then that.Other then all that though everything else is fine i guess.I am trying to save money while buy christmas.I told Chad i refuse to move anywhere until i get a car.Cause i am not getting a new job in Baton Rouge with no way to get back and forth to work.Right now im ok i have rides but if i move i am fucked cause he will be working and he will be the only person i know out there pretty much.I had went and gotten a money order finally to pay the rent cause i finally got my last subway check today.It was only 194.94 i am telling you i think they were fucking up my checks cause now this one said i only worked 36 hours in two weeks but i have all my stubs saved from clocking out and they came out to 54 hours in the past two weeks.So i could only get a money order for 280.00 to pay the fucking rent.It's ok though cause Nic owes me 100.00 so he is supposed to be paying that portion of it for me.Which im still pissed about cause i dont want to be paying for a fucking apartment i don't live in.I promise you once they get a new roomate im not paying for it.I refuse to,weather i signed the lease or not.Plus i am still "pending" with F.E.M.A. for rental assistance and i got enough bills......errr i hate money i really do.
 
     

(2 doll_parts | Break Me)

 
Pizza and moving   
05:56pm 23/11/2005
 
mood: blank
I don't feel like updating but i must.Let me frist say that i love my new job,subway can suck my ass right about now.I am getting much better hours,with better pay plus im not doing the same boring thing all day.It's the kind of work where my ADD comes in handy.Say im doing something and i get bored with it (like making dough for example) if i get bored i can move onto something like making pizzas or landing the pizzas.I can do this cause there is so much to be done and just the right amount of people that you dont really have time to sit down.Plus my boss's are really cool.Which is a major plus,i think another plus that my boss's are actually from this country and i would say they dont have funny accents but they do cause they are from Michigan,what the fuck.Other then that i have sworn of any road trips if i have work that day.I decied to go see James in Florida two Saturdays ago and i had work on Sunday at 6:00 we left at 11 thinking we would get me to work in time since it was a three hour drive,fuck no i was an hour late cause they landed a helicopter on the insterate in mississippi cause some moron decied to drive his red ford taurus into the trees.Then i went to Baton Rouge with Chad on Friday to see him mommy.I had work again for 6:00 as we were leaving Baton Rouge the raditaor in his brand new honda broke.Like broke broke.We had to get Ray to come meet us on the intersate and get it changed.I kept calling work begging them not to fire me they said it was cool.I finally got to work that evening at 9:50 ten mintues before we closed.It sucked cause i raced to work and i get there and my boss was laughing cause i saved the recipets and the broke radiator to show her that we weren't lieing.She just told me come back Saturday.So no more road trips for me.But there is a possiblity i will me moving with Chad to Baton Rouge in January.My mom is leaving to move to Virigna and when i mean moving i mean taking my dog and her shit and leaving my dad and me and Chad here.She is a fucking bitch.Long story behind this one that i don't feel like explaing but has to do with her getting a new job and us selling the house and me hating my dad and them filing for divorce so yea.If you want to know just email me.
 
     

(Break Me)

 
New Job   
05:03pm 10/11/2005
 
mood: full
Orientation at the pizza place on Saturday.Woo hoo so i can put in my two weeks notice to Subway WOOHOO!!Making more money and i will have to only deal with stupid customers that pick up there pizza,not dine in and delivery.FUCK sandwhichs. :)
 
     

(3 doll_parts | Break Me)

 
Fix Everything My Ass Part 2 / the man with the car   
08:58pm 08/11/2005
 
mood: dirty
Well James came back into town this weekend and spent some time with Chad and I.We all got up at 7 am this morning to meet the stupid FEMA man at the house.We got there on time,actually on time with James not like 20 mintues to an hour late and the guy never showed up!He finally called James like an hour before he was leaving my house to drive back to Florida saying "Oh i got lost i can meet you now."Keep in mind the time would now be 1:30/2:00.James was like are you crazy no im not going.GRRR i hate some F.E.M.A. I can't complain to much though cause i called them the other night to update my contact info,which i realized i had totally forgotten to do since i moved back to New Orleans and that had to be the quickest FEMA call of my life.I had the automated things and the phone rang once and i got a voice on the line.I did all my info change and hung up.The timer on my phone said 4 mintues.4 mintues!Chad and Adam left to go to the store for 20 mintues and i called them thinking that i would still be on the phone once they came back but i wasn't.Maybe they are finally getting there acts together but im still getting "Fix Everything My Ass" tattoed under my hurricane.




Chad finally got his second FEMA check in so he is going to get a car.He wants to try to go to the auctions with his dad to go get a little honda for cheap.Like a grand and half,which wouldn't be to bad.But honestly i hate the idea of him going.Don't get me wrong i understand we live together and have been together literally every day since we evacuted and some time away from one another would do us some good,since the only time we spend away is the 6-8 work days we have.But i will be honest i trust Chad.Don't get me wrong and i love him with all my heart but after finally finding out a year fucking later in Texas that he cheated on me and then lied to me about me?Also he got his best friend to hide the secert to makes me uneasy.I cheated to,yes but i told him.I didn't lie about,i didn't get my friends to lie about it.I didn't pretend like it didn't happen.But i don't know.I mean he told me he felt bad for doing it and it was revenage.I mean i can't be to mad but two wrongs don't make a right.Also how am i supposed to know that was the only time.I am not saying he doesn't have right to think these questions either cause him and i were both in the wrong but it is still in the back of mind.I won't talk to him about it i guess cause we didn't really talk about it.When i did it it was a year and half ago and i still feel bad.So what do i do express my feelings and try to talk about it?Or do i deal with it and work on the relationship it's self until it passes?
 
     

(2 doll_parts | Break Me)

 
I am 20 bah   
09:06pm 01/11/2005
 
mood: mellow
I am finally 20 years old....i feel so old.*frowns* But it's not so bad,well not as bad as i thought.I don't have much time to update as usual.But i had a fun weekend.JAMES CAME INTO TOWN AND TOTALLY SURPISED ME THIS PAST WEEKEND THAT WAS THE COOLEST BIRTHDAY PRESENT EVER!Plus Chad gave me these two hello kitty piggy banks one is kitty and the other one is daniel,they are so cute!Work as gotten a little bit better,i guess.I can't complain to much as least i am empolyed right?I just wish i could work with people who actually would do there job and not leave me and maybe one other girl to work while they all sit on there asses and hang out with there boyfriends and are on the cell phone all day.Can't complain to much cause im the girl they call in when they don't want to come into work so you know what that means?More hours.Yea my last check was nice 432.00. The only check i have ever gotten bigger then that was my damn FEMA check,which was a joke anyways.Now it is time to save up for a damn car and yet another place.Oh i forgot yea we all went to the party on Saturday and well all hung out Sunday night.It made me hella uncomfortable cause Mal brought over not one but two of my ex g/f's to my house last night while i am living with chad.I mean one i don't have a problem with and one just keeps throwing our break-up back into my face but whatever.The only problem i had with it last night is that they were all over one another at Chris and Danielle's house.Yea we are ex's but i still think that is shitty dude but whatever.
 
     

(4 doll_parts | Break Me)

 
To busy to update   
05:06pm 24/10/2005
 
mood: cold
Chad and i finally got back to see the house for the frist time Thursday night.We didn't go inside because the time we actually reached our house it was way to dark to see inside.I was standing a little down the driveway and when he opened the front door this horrible smell came out.It smelled like the decomp room at the Coroner's Office.Then you could running water for some odd reason,we think a pipe might have busted.We are going to go back during the day,one day when we are both off and go look again.Chalmette is so bad and when i get all my pics from there i will post them.I mean our house is still standing and isn't spilt in two like one home i saw in the East but damn dude.But on a happy note David came in this weekend so it was the frist time Chad and I got to see David since the hurricane.It felt so good to have pretty much everybody back again (cause Shelly and Nic were in town getting the shit from nic's house before going back to houston) but we were missing james.*frowns*But that's ok i am sure i will see him soon.Oh yea we all went and saw Doom Saturday night,i played the video game so i have right to say this....the movie sucked.I didn't like it but i should've known i am never statifsed when they take any video game or comic book and turn it into a movie.Maybe I didn't like it also cause im a big genetics freak so everything in there pissed me off cause it was wrong and i don't like the rock either.But i am trying not to be bias.I mean i didn't want my 8.00 back but it wasn't omg either.On another note i shall be 20 in one week,HALLOWEEN BABY!Man i feel old........
 
     

(1 doll_part | Break Me)

 
I have found hell it is located at 957 Manhattan Blvd. in Harvey   
04:53pm 19/10/2005
 
mood: pleased
That is the address to my work,Subway.I enjoy my job but the customers,omg.Can these people be any stupider?I swear today they were having a contest of who could be the biggest douche bag in the unviverse!This one guy came in during lunch and was like "I want a number one just like the picture" I said "Ok." So i dressed his meatball sandwhich and i was like what type of cheese would you like sir?He began bitching and talking to me like i was a five year old,"I want just like in the picture"I was like sir you pick what type of cheese you would like and he tells me the same thing,so we fight back and forth and finally the guy behind him said "give him pepperjack".So i go to add it and the guy starts yelling "I don't want pepperjack."I was going to strangle this man and he finally said "white american" so i put it on there,and asked "how would you like your sandwhich dressed sir?"He got another attitude and said just like in the picture i was like there is nothing in the damn picture so i wraped it up and handed it to him.Then after he is rung up he asked Maranda-"Is it toasted?" I repsoned with "No."He begins yelling at me "I WANT IT TOTASTED!".I was like why didn't you say anything and he proceeds to tell me,you didn't ask.......*bangs head into table*I really wish it were legal,or i wouldn't at least lose my job for shoving my hand down this man's thoart and pulling his insides out through his mouth.Ok i feel better now but every single day we get some idiot in there like that,on good days we get more then one....sometimes in groups (place sarcasm here).I know anywhere i will go will i will have to deal with morons and every job i have ever had i had to deal with morons.But that's ok cause things to look forward to

1.I turn 20 in 11 days (halloween bitches!)
2.David might be coming into town this weekend and will be staying with Chad and I
3.We are going to the halloween party at the Palace for my birthday since damn VOODOO is only open to F.E.M.A. assholes........they shouldn't get there own private voodoo for being cock suckers but oh well....
 
     

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Home   
04:14pm 13/10/2005
 
mood: happy
Im back in New Orleans BITCHESSSS!THANK GOD.I am home with my mommy,my kitty and my doggie.Oh yea i have my chadikins with me too *huggles*I am so happy.I have been back less then a week and i already have a job making 7.00 an hour and im about to get a car and everything is going just fine.Granted my house that i was living in with Chad that was in Chalmette is gone.The water line is a foot from our ceiling the washer and dryer are in the living room and the refig. is on it's side etc.So chad and i are staying with my mom and dad for a while.Everything is alright......I am so glad to be back home.GOD DAMN DID I HATE HOUSTON....oh btw i thought of a great idea to get something tattooed underneath my hurricane "F.E.M.A.-Fix Everything My ASS!!!". :)
 
     

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Jobless in Houston   
04:32pm 01/10/2005
 
mood: content
I have a moment to update so i shall.I am still jobless and trying hard to find one.The thing is i am still employed by the Temp Agency-MANPOWER but the closest office they have is 35 mintue drive from where the apartment is and we are sharing one car.So if anybody has any ideas for me let me know.Speaking of cars,Shelly and I went out yesterday and ran errands we went to best buy to pick up Nic from work and the fucking TRANSMISSION WENT OUT!!!!So we had to call Nic's mom to come pick us up and we drove around some car lots trying to find a new car for like 1,000 since Nic needed one himself anyways finally four hours later we found one (it was nine o'clock and keep in mind Shelly and I went and bought four ticket to Corpse Bride for 8:35).So Nic got a MX6 for 500.00 and we finally got back the apartment with the new piece of shit we had and went to the 10:40 showing for Corpse Bride....which btw i still love you Tim Burton i want to see that movie five more times and i still to this day want to have his babies,speaking of which i picked up a new copy of "The Melchanoly Death of Oyster Boy and Other Stories"(my frist one got stolen).I highly recommend this sick yet wonderful book to everyone. :)
 
     

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Alive   
06:25pm 29/09/2005
  Alive and still in fucking houston............peace out bitches  
     

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Don't feel like it but must   
12:32am 16/09/2005
 
mood: sick
I shall go through a quick run down.Finally got in touch with fema*rolls eyes* but i must admit we got our checks rather quickly,each one of us got 2,000 within two days of calling them.Tommorw we go buy things for our new apartment that we just leased out and move into on Saturday....deep down inside i want to go home,i know there is nothing left of St.Bernard.We looked on the floodmap that one of my lj friends has listed we actually clicked the streets and blocks by our house and they flat out told us info was unavaible,but i know it's working cause when you got further up the road it began reading water levels.That is not a happy thing.So to make myself feel better i going to use whatever money i have left over from apartment needs and buy me a better sewing machine then what i had along with some nice colored pencils and finally begin sewing and designing all my clothes.I look at it this way im spiteful for having to be here but i should just make the best of it while i can.Please sewing will help me relieve a lot of stress,no more lj when i move saturday...looks like we won't get internet and shit for a while.
 
     

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I need my Lexapro   
02:42pm 11/09/2005
 
mood: cynical
The water pump broke in the car today and right now the only money between us is a 100.00 check that we can't cash anywhere.We all got jobs now though,they just transferred Nic to the Best Buy store out here while the rest of us filled out apps and now we all have interviews Wednesday morning when Nic goes into work.Problem is how are we going to get to work with the car now broken?We've been here almost two weeks and it's starting to get to me.Im becoming more annoyed and pissed off but im keeping all my anger in.I don't want to blow up on anybody cause now is not the time.I just need somebody i can rant too i know what my problem is being stuck in a place i aboustly hate,and yes i hate it here with a fucking passion for two weeks,with little money,no straight answers,nothing.Im on edge im sorry.I just want to go outside and let the biggest frustrated scream in the world out.I know this is me just being annoyed and is not true but lately it's been seeming like everybody is more important than me and fuck what i have to say,think,or want.Again don't read into that im just on edge and need to get some frustation out.I don't honestly mean it.
 
     

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FUCK A BUNCH OF LIEING GOD DAMN FEMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   
08:29pm 08/09/2005
 
mood: pissed off
We went to the Civic Center yesterday after being told by this insane but very sweet trans-woman at the GLBT center in Houston to go there.We were told we need to sign up for FEMA and she swore up and down to us FEMA was there.We get there big huge sign saying "NO FEMA TODAY!".We waitied in three long ass lines for four hours just to get registered to get access in and out the building where we were finally taken up stairs about 6 pm to where FEMA would register us.Out of the four of us Chad got registered.Then all there computers went down.We were sitting there waiting for another 45 mintues before they tell us "You do know you don't have to sit here right?You can register with us online or over the phone".We were all like WHY DIDN'T YOU FUCKING TELL US BEFORE YOU DUMB SHIT!So we were told to come back at nine am today anyways to get our stuff from FEMA(after we were registered) and our Red Cross and any other info we may need.After an hour drive into downtown Houston we get there and the line is literally a mile long and wraped around the entire Civic center.We talked to some people and read the signs again they said "NO FEMA TODAY".FEMA TOLD US THEMSELVES THEY WOULD BE HERE TODAY.WHAT THE FUCK.So we were upset and left,we searched for the office to get our food stamps,that took another five hours just to fill out one piece of paper and talk to one guy for five mintues and sign some card.Then i get online to check my email just now and i have been talking to this really sweet girl who has been helping me she sent me some info on FEMA about the debit cards in this email (it was something she grabbed off the internet) stated "FEMA REPS. COULD NOT BE CONTACTED".I swear if i can ever met somebody from FEMA like oh i don't know the idiot in charge im going to shove that debit card into his ass.......





Sorry about all the lanuage but i think i have been rather patient enough already.
 
     

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